My mind was very erratic yesterday, thoughts swirling around a mile a minute, a bit jumbled up and fleeting. In a moment of supreme clarity, I realize there are things around me and within that need some tweaking.
I have come to the conclusion that the majority of my "friendships" have no substance to them what-so-ever. Apart from the two or three gems I've found along the way, the rest are inconsequential. We share no common interests, hobbies or even principles and that is a problem for me. I'm over the "some things never change, here we go again" ridiculousness of it all. There is a lyric that puts it into perspective for me and it's "keep on doing the same thing, and you're expecting change, is that really insanity, or just a losing game". It's time to move on to bigger and better things. Speaking with my best friend last night expressing these things to her for her to help me deal with my "crazy", she says "we don't really share the same interests". I ponder this for a simple second and tell her "we're different", as cliche' as it sounds, she's my oldest and dearest friend and yet, despite not sharing many common interests, our souls just belong together. That's a friendship with substance, one that can go long periods of time without speaking, yet when I'm feeling angry, down, sad, confused or happy it only takes a few minutes of conversation before the calm spreads and I realize that I'm a lucky girl. It's time to start expanding my social circle to find other souls that my soul can't do without!
For as long as I can remember I've always been passionate about music and writing. Somewhere along the road, the writing fell off and I think it's time to get it back. The music...it's tough to explain, there are those who get it and those that just don't. The power of music rests in its ability to reach inside and touch the places where the deepest cuts lie. A good song should move you to your core, change your mood, it should make you feel like you can fly, and every once in a while you will stumble upon a song that will change your life. A new friend and I are planning a trip to go see some local bands play at a lounge or club, and I think it's just what I need! I have put off a lot of the things I've always wanted to do, so it's about that time to step up and reclaim them.
That's all for now, I shall leave you will a few of my favorite songs currently rotating on my playlist. Definitely worth a listen!
"Dear God" ~ Avenged Sevenfold
"Cosmic Love" ~ Florence and The Machine
"Home" ~ Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros
